well, it's done.

I went to Mexico for Christmas. I was alittle nervous going, and not just cause i was going to be flying alone. The day I got there, my aunt took me to see my Grandpa's grave site. I was alittle shocked, cause it's not underground. (you can see pics on facebook) My aunt and I decided that we should celebrate my grandpa's life (it's really not fair that he's havin' all the fun; Chillin' out maxin' and relaxin' all cool, with Jesus.) We took a day trip to see some beautiful scenary (again, you can see pics on facebook). We had a good time. Christmas eve was alittle rough, for all of us. We cried. I cried most when we started singing my grandpa's favorite hymn (it was about going to heaven). I'm glad I cried. If that makes any sense. It was good to see my family members cry too. I knew that even though it's been over a month since he's gone home, it still hurts us all.

I had alot of thinking to do as I sat in the terminal, waiting for my flight back to the U.S., and watching my relatives being ridiculous on the other side of the pane. (they were screaming "Cio, don't go!" (but in spanish of course)) I love them. I realized how greatful I was that God allowed me to even get the opportunity to go. It was great. It was much needed. I have closure now. I. Have. Peace.

It will be New Years in a couple of hours. (i'm at home with a fever.) New year = New beginnings.  Pray with me, that this is the year that I get it together, and find a way to freggin' graduate college, again!

Feliz Año Nuevo!

Thank you for praying for me.

Here are somethings that God has revealed to me in the past few days :

#1. We can't manage and control all the pain out of life.We're gonna have some.

#2. This not news to us.

#3. You already have. I already have. How we're going to deal with it, what we're going to do with it, and the big  "WHO" we're gonna depend on...That's what it's all about.

#4. Pain will not kill you. If anything, It makes you more alive.

#5. I was mistakenly believing that the goal of life is the absence of pain.

#6. But, it's NOT the goal of life. It's glory.

#7. Now, Sometimes glory can come with no pain. Sometimes... it stings. 

.....The one thing I know in my heart to be true....

 If I understand nothing of what if happening to me, if I never get an single answer until I see HIM  face to face, I will proclaim Him as God, I will follow Him to the ends of the earth. and I will love Him by faith.

(^ this is my foundation...but I am human...and i'm gonna hit some rough spots...but that is what I know to be true.)

Mom is coming home sunday. Grandpa is going back to his house, soon, too. I pray this time it's true.